New things makes me happy

I went for a shopping spree yesterday. It's funny how sales can bring out the ugliest in people, though ironically, the mad dash and the pushing and shoving all point to the need to look good. Makes me wonder what's really important and if it's really too superficial to judge people by their looks and dressing. For all you know, the person in the cool, spiffy outfit that you admire tomorrow might just be the one that shoved you yesterday just to get to it...I told this to someone before.

Neverthless, I did have some returns. Spent a couple of hundreds on a few tops from G2000 and Bebe. The one I liked most is the one from Bebe, maybe because it fit me best and it is from BEBE! A pity that they will be closing down soon. Guess they are just not so popular with us, Singaporeans.

Big News

I'm hurt. That's all I have to say. Don't feel good. Buried myself in my work but that doesn't seems to help. Gonna go gym later after work, will see whether can that help me out in my emotional being. It should, to a certain extend. At least, I can let it all out on the cross-trainer and push myself to the limit.

I must say, I'm not a person who is easily hurt or get upset quickly and can definitely move on in no time. In this case, it shall be the same. Life moves on.

I must say I own it to my friend, Candy. I delicate this entry to her because she made me realised that I can find love in many other ways. One of which is our love, our platonic love. Unconditional love I would say.

She sent me a sms saying : You made me realised the meaning of true friends. We are kinda different from others. No attachments, No obligation, No irritation from one another. Just simply be there to lend a helping ear and helping hand if needed. Have fun, joy and laughter together. Not forgetting misery too. We must have loved each other unconditionally. No expectations, No demand, No sex and that's for sure. haha.

I was touched I must say and I would go through fire or water for her.

I've done it

Yesterday was a shuffle of mixed feelings and emotions. Very draining session I had for the past days. Both physically and emotionally.

But it was the ultimate for yesterday night. I broke my rules and was never in that kinda situation before. It was new, fresh yet saddness within those positive feel. Sad, because I made a wrong decision many months back and it only took me to realise it after. I can feel the hurt and pain I put her through during those months, it must have been difficult. Yes, indeed it was. Was I even thinking right? It was issues that could have been dealt with at that point in time but I wasn't ready to face it yet I chose to escape from it, thinking that it was the only way out. It was wrong of me, to run away.

Is it too late? Only she knows the answer.

Caught Red-Handed

I should really hand it to my sister who is fourteen years of age. I can't deny that I was in that sorta situation before so I wouldn't blame her much. Caught her red-handed at the coffee-shop nearby my house having breakfast with friends. She should be in school at this point in time. I drove past and thought I saw someone familiar, wanted to be 100% sure, I detour back. True enough, it was her. She was still in her uniform and happily eating until she saw my face. Horrified, the word I would use to describe the look on her face. I took her away with her and off to school. I was like that before and would exactly know how she feels. Well, it is all part of growing up. Having to play truant was kinda thrilling for anyone even for me when I was much younger.

That's a family entry so far, now again my own personal thoughts.

I wrote a email yesterday, a sad one I would say. Was feeling emotional while writing it, tears almost went down my cheeks. Sounds dramatic isn't it but it sure is. No reply till now and probably will not recieve any. Shall I call it a day? Or should I persist? I used to believe in 'Persistency Beats Resistency' but it would not be the case this time round perhaps.

Another entry, second for the day

Inspired by moonx's post about having to make decision, it's time I should make my very own.

Life is what make impossible possible, this used to be my slogan. No, I shouldn't use the word 'used', it is still my slogan.

I'm at my work-station, should be concentrating on my report that's gonna be due end of this week but I'm here typing away my thoughts. I've totally no mood to even concentrate, just want to break free. Free from emotions.

Emotions can be deadly, depending how you would manage it. People do silly things over it. If one is heartless and emotionless, does that means that he/she will not suffer pains of the heart?

I need a light that would guide me to where I go, at this point in time I would turn to God for he will know me, only he will know.

My morning and first entry.

Friday 21 May 2004 12pm

A fine morning, I woke up feeling fresh and energized. I slept more than 10 hours I think. Went to the gym at 6.30am, there were already quite a number of hardworking souls, panting away. As usual, I would normally start off with my cross-trainer machine for warm up. A good 20 minutes I've spent with her. No joke about it boi, this machine is hell of a good one. Burn the most calories and full body motion workout you can expect. Would advise anyone to use that if you are thinking of getting the KGs off your body.

At 7am, that's when the real battle begins. Training is always excellent with my trainer. To be able to endure that one hour with him is usually a feat. I would feel so satisfied with myself everytime I walked out of the main entrance of California. I felt like I've achieved something, something big and incredible task.

This is my first time using a blog, will be typing my thoughts away on this in future...kinda cool. Good day to me and to whoever is reading it.

Cheers.